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Hard Answer, But True Short of leaving, or being left, I find only one way to survive and even glory in this whirl of emotions called woman. It is to find my own emotions. It is to learn the riches of the interior life for it's own sake and to find in doing this that I begin to speak some of the language of my partner. Perhaps I will be pushed into the journey first of all because I love her and do not want to lose her. But the best will be found when I "fall in love" with myself. When I stay with her as a friend- and a lover- but also as a man who is not dependent on and at the mercy of her emotions. I need to feel for myself. I need to find my own feelings and become comfortable with them, so that hers are not so strange a language, and so threatening a storm to my equilibrium. As I learn to feel, I will feel her pain more! and yet not be so unsettled by it and so powerless in its blast. This will be no easy task... for I have spent most of my life learning not to feel as a way to survive.
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